Hello (: Long time..

no see!

I've gone on an unofficial hiatus due to personal problems for the last 6+ months. I moved out in February, and things got super busy with me and my boyfriend since he's staying with me.

Then things got horrible.
My brother and I started fighting, and our relationship basically deteriorated. He ended up pushing me one day in front of his little "girlfriend" because, I guess, he felt like I was disrespecting him. He pushed me so hard (mind you, he's 6' about 240 lbs, while I'm only 5' 4") that I flew like 4 feet and the foot of my bed and landed on my hand weird so I sprained two fingers. My boyfriend freaked out and started yelling at him.. and everything.. iduno. I ended up staying at my mom's house with my boyfriend (since she was out of the country visiting my grandma) for a whole week because I was scared to be at my apartment at all.

Things were okay for a couple weeks.. my brother started talking to me a little more. It was whatever. I didn't trust it for a second. But he freaked out almost 4 weeks after the first incident. I was asking when he would get me money for rent and utilities, and other stuff.. and he just freaked out. He basically attacked me and pushed me onto my bed in my room and was screaming in my face to stop my bitching and to shut the fuck up. He ended up breaking my phone by throwing it against the wall, throwing my dinner (noodles) all over my room and wall and making a huge gash on my wall. He threw my shit around my room and he threw my little trash can (including the beer bottle inside) and hit my back.. I left the apartment crying hysterically and had to borrow my upstairs neighbor's cell phone to call my boyfriend to hurry and come home. It turns out two of my neighbors ended up calling the cops on the whole thing.. I didn't press charges because I was scared it would make it worse. That night was horrible. I was pretty much a mess for a couple months. My boyfriend was always with me if I was at the apartment.. I was literally scared for my life to be alone at my apartment.

Anyways. We've moved past that now.. we're actually talking a little more now. He's being nicer and everything, but everything he's doing to be nice, I'm taking with a grain of salt. His personality is that he's a ticking time bomb that can go off at any time.. like a land mine. The smallest thing can set him off.

Everything else in my life is just work. Work work work. For almost 3 months this summer I worked 65 hours a week. That was just so draining. I worked at 7:45 am until 3:00 pm Monday through Friday, and then Thursdays and Fridays I worked from 5:30-11:00, and Saturday and Sunday I worked all fucking day. I was literally burnt out.

Now, I got promoted to Assistant Manager at my dad's restaurant, and I work a steady 40 hours a week. I'm really happy at this position. I do a lot of office work, inventory, scheduling, and babysitting our staff, haha. Anyways, I'm not sure if I'm going to be back to blogging about makeup. I might just turn this into my food (more like baking) blog. Or I'll just do both. I've picked up baking again as a hobby, and it makes me really happy. I have an awesome (sort of) new camera, so I should have no problem with taking pictures.

Well, I hope that SOMEbody is still interested in reading my rambling blog.

Toodles.

Getting into Gear

Sorry for my prolonged absence, ladies.
I've been working two jobs and trying to maintain a clean apt (thanks to living to two boys, it's a LOT of a work). I'm working at my dad's private school again since he FIRED the bitch that fired me.. (: And then I'm hostessing at my dad's restaurant (East 180). That shit is TIRING.

Anyways.
The reason for this post was to write about my weight. I haven't been taking many pictures of myself lately because I don't like how it looks. I've noticed my face is a bit chubbier along the jawline. I finally weighed myself after about 3 months. I haven't had a scale in my vicinity since we moved out of our "small house" in December, back to our "big house." My trainer and I went to the big ass scale at the gym, and it said 133. Oh. My. God. I was kind of upset on the inside. I don't know how I got this bad. I kept thinking about how I used to be 108. Or 115 after I gained some muscle mass from working out 4x a week.

Well. It was a wake up call, and I'm seriously going to get into gear. I'm scheduled to work out at the gym twice a week, AND the bf and I will start taking walks or short runs. I've never been a runner, so we'll build up to running/jogging eventually.

Okay, I know that picture-less posts kind of suck, so I fooled around with my new Macbook (for work only ;p) so here are a few silly pictures!

My Kitty Kouture compact! (: I loooooveee

My mommy came to visit me at my apt. this weekend, and she brought my baby, Icee! hehe. Sorry for the darkness, though ):

I'm going to try try try and update more. I feel so guilty since I lurk, ha. But okay. Have a great Tuesday, girls!

Btw, did anyone watch GOSSIP GIRL LAST NIGHt?!?!?! OMgggg, haha. Lonely boy is soooo annoying!

Woo!!

My phone lines, Time Warner (ew!) DVR, and INTERNET is set up now in my new apartment!! I have not taken any pictures because it's still messy ): Well, my room is. The outside living room/kitchen/dining room is pretty damn immaculate kuz I'm crazy OCD like that! Grr.

Anywho. I unpacked half of my clothes, most of my shoes and purses, and makeup already. But I haven't unpacked my books, or my desk. I didn't realize I just have SO MUCH SHIT. Gah! I blame my hoarding mom, haha. I just collect little things.. ugh. I'll be sure to take pictures once everything in my room is neat. It's just such a hassle, trying to find space for my shit AND the bf's. He keeps throwing his socks and clothes EVERYWHERE when he comes home.. stinky boys.

Things are looking up for me, for the most part!
1. My dad said I'm getting a slight raise! No more 12/hr pay.
2. Both my brother and I are getting a bonus at the end of the month, considering our move out.
3. My dad is signing over both of our cars (my BMW, and his Caddy).
4. (and most importantly), my dad has been really, really, really, uncharacteristically nice to us. It's nice.

Since I have internet at home now, I'll be posting more (hopefully!). But my stinky brother stole my old crappy webcam so that he can "chat" (o_O) with his sort of girlfriend, but not really girlfriend (it's complicated). So I guess I'll look into buying a newer, better one, that I can clip on my laptop.

Oh and I'm getting my 6th tattoo next Thursday night. I was scheduled to get it YESTERDAY, but I rescheduled because I'm not completely sure what I want to get yet. My list of tattoos I want still is..

1. Swallow/sparrow. Not sure which design I like, since there are soo many variations of both. I'm leaning more towards a realistic looking swallow. Black and white. I just don't know where I want it, so I think I'll hold off for a while longer.
2. A dia de los muertos skull, or a sugar skull. I haven't found a style that I like yet, and the placement I want for it.. it isn't the right timing. I'm thinking of putting it on my inner bicep.. not my right hip. The bf says that I'll look weird with tattoos on both sides of my body.. I think it has something to so with my OCD need to balance out things. -shrug- I'm waiting for this one too.
Which brings me to.. 3. I've been obsessed about Coheed for the last I-don't-know-how-many months. They were my first real concert experience, and it was fucking awesome, to say the least! They're a band that's really true to themselves and is never fazed by stupid comments and people calling them "emo," which they clearly are not! Also, who wouldn't love a CONCEPT BAND? With 4 concept albums out?! Mm, talent. Anyways, I was planning on getting a string of lyrics on right side. Starting sort of on my back ribs and coming to the side of my stomach. I was thinking "Man your own jackhammer!!" with a little dragonfly, but people keep telling me that it sounds sexual. Boo. I just LOVE that song.. a lot (In Keeping Secrets of Silent Earth: 3). Now I'm just looking into awesome, more obscure lyrics of theirs. I'm just excited to be getting more ink.

Wow, this post went way longer than I had intended.. But I'll hopefully have a post up tonight or tomorrow. I picked up my HK stuff. It's not much, but I wasn't interested in many products. I'm waiting for my Kouture compact next month! HEHE.

Picture(s) of the Week

I promise I have some entries up my sleeves.. A couple hauls, and plus I pick up my HK tonight. But I leave you with a Picture of the Week.

I move out FOR SURE this weekend, so I'll be busy this week with packing and such. But once I get internet up at my new apartment, I'll be posting a lot more, I'm sure! And also, I plan to do some Blog
TV.. Yes?? haha.

The bf and me @ the Coheed concert.

Why does my hair look so stringy? ):

Me. Bored. With my boobs hanging out, haha!

Btw, those are my (Dior) "seeing far" glasses I got especially for Coheed's 4 night concert. I laaav them, but they sit a little low on my nose.. kuz my face is so flat!

Happy Tuesday!
After work, I'm heading to the Brea mall with my bestie to pick up my HK shit! Whoo.